cbear : Big yikes. I hope it gets better for you. Try to think positive. Worrying really doesn't help and it can cause depression and physical illness. Really sorry you have to be alone, though. I know that makes any holiday season hard, bad weather or not.
@J2911 : Well, it's my own fault. I told my kids to decide how to handle Christmas since my DS' birthday is Christmas eve. Both kids have SO's and need to visit their families so I said that I will do whatever is easier. They decided to celebrate Christmas on Christmas eve along with my DS's birthday.